This is, happiness!
The season. The friends. The love of my life!
Here’s to 2014! Everything feels so surreal! I have a great job, although I’m still serving in a restaurant…it’s a job, and I make great money! I have great friends who are there for me…whether it be to vent, to go out to dinner, to go to the dog park, to go get sushi, to catch up with, to have rainy movie days, to dye our hair, or to cut my hair! :) They are there. and I love them! I have a great family, both mine & his! Both there to support me in any endeavor I may find myself in, path I may be strolling down, or jump I may be risking to take. They are there ready to encourage, support and challenge me! And of course I have a great boyfriend! One who loves me no matter what. Who is there to meet my every need (the simple needs of a girlfriend that is) haha. Who tells me I’m beautiful and still seems to sweep me off my feet. One to lay in bed with on a cold afternoon and watch the Lorax. Or to go out and have a fun filled day out and about. One who likes to take me out, and opens my door for me! One who snuggles up close and kisses me softly! One who is patient and loving and kind enough to explain every little part of football, even when I still don’t seem to understand what’s going on. The guy who loves to make me breakfast in bed and wants to take my dog to the park! The guy who makes me smile uncontrollably and laugh with total abandon. Is this real life?? How did I end up this blessed! Trying new things, cooking new things. This is today. This is me. This is my life! And I couldn’t be more grateful!
well…with valentines day just passing, thought I’d go with a little nifty title. haha. Hmm, where to begin! Well life is incredible!! Guess thats a good place to start! Still going through the choosing joy book and its continuing to change my life! They way I look at situations, the way I handle situations, my actions, my thoughts, my words. It all revolves around being joyful! And let me tell you, God is doing BIG things! HUGE things..not only in my life, my all the ones who surround me too! And its amazing to be able to sit back and watch it all unfold! And its like through it all He is asking me to just give it all to Him and BE MINE. God wants us to give Him our all and unload any problems, worries, or stress we have! On another note Im all moved in and settled in the new room, whoop whoop! Good times, funn times, great times! I love being surrounded by all the people I love 24/7! Who could ask for more?! Its sleepovers, movie nights, game nights, and all the time laughter and happiness! I honestly couldn’t be happier at this point in my life! I only wish my other two best friends abs&key were here to be with us! That would just be the icing on the cupcake! :) with spring break and tax refunds right around the corner life’s just breezin on by! Holla holla. Allright dont wanna be that annoying mushy girlfriend who raves about valentines day,,,BUT it was amazing! :) Happy happy happy. Gosh ryan went above and beyond what I had expected and made it the best most special romantic first valentines day a girl could ever have! I literally could not stop smiling the entire night! He means THE WORLD to me and I cant be more grateful to God for allowing Him to share him with me and bringing us together! So, thats all im gonna spill of that! ha.
Man oh man…
Well life sure has been interesting!
We’ve all been up and we’ve all been down.
Happy moments and crying ones.
God has to truly be moving in all of our lives…
Recently me and my roommate taylor have started her moms new book called Choosing Joy! Gosh, such an incredible blessing that devotional has been! Each day we’ve learned to keep our heads up and not let the things of this world get us down! The little anger moments, or ungrateful moments, or moments where people can be so rude, hateful, or mean. Those are all the moments where the devil has a open door to just come in and steal all our joy! It’s been so hard. The Lord is getting to do something BIG and I cant wait to see what it is! The devil has been testing us and its literally been one of the hardest things I’ve had to deal with in my life! I can’t so it alone either! With the support and fellowship and my best friends and my boyfriend I’ve been slowly dragging myself through the past couple of days! To put things into perspective…lets start with my best friend taylors roommate moved out. Yepp, the one who moved in to where I could live with Ryan. Well she’s gone now and it feels like all hell is braking loose! Drama drama drama, is all I have to say…for now at least! Long story really short, she is now gone and Im moving back in with taylor, Leaving Ryan alone. But thankfully not alone anymore, one of his good buddies is moving and and hopefully will turn out for the best! When I say best I mean not get on each others last nerve and live peacefully within the same confines. But so far so good. I have successfully moved all my things over and his new roommate is slowly moving all his stuff in! Cha-chingg! holla. All is good again right? HA. yeah right. Work has been awful! No business, so slow, and making little to no money. Getting cut after only being there for an hour and only having one table just sucks. Or having to be there all night and close and getting stiffed twice. You pick…either or both suck. How bout we talk about how incredibly hard it has been on my heart moving out! Holy moly good gracious alive! Its almost as if I had lost my boyfriend, best friends, and every loving family member…thats how bad. Im not sure why its not just easy to go back to the way it was before, but moving in with him just made us that much closer. I feel like it made us closer, stronger, and more loving as a couple. And now that Im having to leave that it feels like my hearts just being ripped out. Or that Im losing my best friend. Thankfully God has been there through all of this and setting aside my emotional wreck I will be fine and we will both get through this stronger than we were before! Its just gonna take time, and support. As much as its gonna suck, I think in the end we will be so much happier. And not to mention we still live right next door and are getting a house within the next 6 months. Crazy right? so I think I can manage…maybe. Ha.
So with this joyful looking forward attitude…I would like to say that I cant wait to be living with taylor! Now that we’ve experienced living with others, its now time to put our situation back to the test! Except this time more prepared than before! We know more about each other and our ways and I feel like we’re on the same page again! Holla holla. Thank Jesus for friends! I cant wait to have girls night, sleepovers every night, friends, gossip girl, pretty little liars, paint our nails and straighten our hair,you name it and thats us! So now not only are we reuniting but so are our precious little ones! LanaRae and Bentley are SO excited! Ha. Playtime all the time!
So cross your fingers and say a prayer for us! Cause this is gonna be one heck of a ride…
Okay so you know those cliche photo strips?! Well I may or may not be obsessed. Haha. Black and white. Vintage. Memories. Happy moments. Spontaneous emotions! Gosh, you just can’t get any better! But sitting in the booth, between the 3 whole seconds they give us to rearrange our faces, so many things started going through my head. The smiles , the laughter, the closeness all seems to be like a dream. somebody pinch me. The sweetness of holding hands and the security of being close all rush through me as if he’ll always be there. Not as just a person to be with, but as a best friend too. Someone I can trust, and count on being there. Someone I tell all my secrets to, confide in, or let go with. Someone who I can be myself around. Someone to be crazy with, or to look at crazy. Getting excited to tell them about your day or just being content not talking at all. It’s the exciting adventure of getting to know every little detail about their past, their everyday, and their plans for ahead. Letting myself open up, to be vulnerable, to be nervous, to be all the normal things that can be. The photo booth pictures seem to be frozen images of the goodness to come. The happiness within me, and the quirkiness of this relationship. All I keep doing is smiling! God is definitely working in me and in this! He is taking me along the path of the long and narrow, but its gonna be so worth it. It feels so comforting. To know that I don’t have to worry or do things on my own. That He has it all planned out already!
Time is a matter of life. Between eating, working, and sleeping 3 days have gone by. Wow. Crazy how time catches up with you like that! This year has been a whirlwind of adventures with time being a minor essence in it all! Senior year was the highlight of my life and i would relive it any day. Friends. Laughter. Boys. Teachers. Football games. Painting up. Late nights. Sleepovers. Hang outs. Sonic. Finals. Graduation. Then summer came…and in a blink of an eye everyone was sitting in rows next to new people listening to a foreign voice talk about the rules and expectations of their classroom. Let me just tell you that before summer even started my transmission went out…STORY OF MY LIFE! haha. So i went from may to august with no way of transportation what so ever! Thankfully I have friends who love me and have my back. With the help of my friends i somehow made my way around to any social event going on, or any party in the making. It was fabulous! Surrounding myself with best friends that could make me laugh by just making a funny face was the life. Inside jokes. The Lake. Happiness. Wake boarding. The Dock. Red Bull. Laying out. Being tan. boys AGAIN. haha. Rocket Summer. Dashboard Confessional. Windows down. Windblown messy hair. Popsicles. Sunshine. Slushies. Jammin with the music turned all the way up! Walking everywhere barefoot. And going in places with little clothes and just a bathing suit. Don’t you just wish papers and due dates didn’t exist! That life :: PAUSED :: for just a second! Look at some of your summer pictures…think about everything that was happening in that moment! And the one shot that you’re looking at is just a glimpse…a pause if you will…at that time in your life! Time, seems to be the key note here. Be happy! Enjoy time while it’s still in your hands. For you to control any was possible. Make the best of every moment! EVERY MOMENT! As the new year comes take a look back and turn it all around! Change your life in a way that will change you!
Kiss slowly, Laugh loudly, Love deeply, Forgive quickly, and Thank God EVERYDAY for your many blessings.
PAUSE::It’s a rainy dreary morning here, of course. but heyy, it’s supposed to snow…yes please! ha. My coffee seems to be oh so good & extra fabulous as I watch the rain trickle down the window seal. My christmas tree lights are reflecting off the window twinkling against every rain drop that makes it’s way to the bottom. Making my room the typical scene in a christmas movie! cha ching! So here I am..sitting…in the midst of this movie when the door knocks! really? come on neighbors. get a life! it is 9 o’clock in the freakin morning! i have no idea who it even was because i was too afraid to get up and see. but deep down i know it had to be one of my crazy neighbors probably needing butter for their toast or the infamous cup of sugar! haha. But anyhoo, it was Christmas time at my house last night! holla holla! haha. loved everything mi madre got me! Pretty much it was the best night my family has ever had together. Sad? yes it is. but that’s just life. So as we move on to today i can just tell it’s going to be a fabulous day! I get paid today…YESS! so i get to finish all my christmas shopping with the bro. 7 days till christmas and 2 days till we leave for louisiana! AHH! so exciting! but yeah. can’t wait to see my biff. hopefully today. but we’ll see. she works like 24/7 now…which sucks. ugh.