left out.

So I live with this family. Not my immediate family. But close friends of mine. Ya know, to get me on my feet. Not underneath my parents thumb anymore but at the same time sturdy enough to try and live life independently. Amazing family! So funn all the time. Never a dull moment. UNTIL today. I feel so bummed. Emily had a really good friend of hers come into town its coincidentally Andrews dad’s birthday. So it’s gonna be a crazy fun day…for everyone, but me. Everyone picks something to do and then they all go do everything! It’s one of the greatest ideas that I will continue to live up after I move out! Well poor pitiful me had to work at 4 so automatically thats half the day thrown out the door. And on top of that I told emily that I would clean her house today. Something that she allows me to do to earn some extra bucks. So when she said hey you sure you don’t wanna come?  Knowing me and my perseverance I wanted to get it done and over with and clean her house like I said I would. Stick to it. Not be a floozy. Work before play. Right? That way the house would look nice and clean for when they got home. Absolute and utter FAIL. One…schuyler(little boy who lives here) came home to take a nap. Leaving me to have to be quiet=no vacuum=nothing getting cleaned. Fabulous. Then once he wakes up, I try to and rush and clean everything in detail before they all get home. This is me…sweating! Awful. so once they all get here pretty much everything is spotless. I try and run to the shower to clean up before heading off to work counting the seconds till I had to leave. Go downstairs only to find A MESS! smudges on the piano, which literally takes 10 minutes to clean all in itself. toys all over the floor. crumbs in the kitchen. trainwreck. It feels like everything I did was pointless and nothing looks nice anymore. Whatever. Its life. I go to work. Haulin it! Walk in late. Pei wei is slammmmmed. As always. Nothing out of the ordinary. Cranky people. Rude people. Impatient people. Along with the occasional funny person. So at this point my mind is wandering off into space. Thinking of all the things I’m missing out on. All the funn that they are having without me. This is me feeling left out. Finally get off work. Go to the oh so wonderful loaner car (which is like a 94 caravan) HA joke! get in the car and call emily! they’re finishing their last activity. oh well. my life sucks. i’ll just go back to the house. get to the house and the babysitter meg(also a friend of mine) is there. So Im like hey you can go ahead and leave, I’ll be in for the night so you can go do whatever ya want. What does she do?! Goes to meet emily, andrew, and mackenzie for dinner. Ha at this point I hate my life! I want dinner! I want friends! I’ve been left out ALL day. Now sulking.  I’m just throwing my own pity party here. Just trying to get all this hostility out. Its no big deal. really. I’ll be fine. Just sucks.