Sometimes it feels like people are just role playing. Actually that everyone’s role playing. Life’s one big performance and everyone is picking anc choosing their parts. Like they have decided in their head who they want to be. Not who they actually are…but a combination of images, personalities and characteristics that they think themselves to be. What they wish they were, or what they have deceived themselves into actually being. When does it all stop? The lies. The fakeness. The confusion. It MUST be tiring. Sometimes they start to forget what day it is and the personality they’re supposed to be playing. Which then creates more confusion to the person watching it all fall apart. Do they know we know? That some days they are the put together, got it all under control dont need your help role…then turn around later that day and are needy, never can do it, please help me role. It’s quite complicated. Maybe they dont even realize it happening. That they are playing the role of someone that they are not. It just seems so wrong. Like trying to fit a square in a circle, or a puzzle piece in the space of another piece. Is it cause they dont know they have a purpose? That they were created they were created for a reason! There’s a bigger plan than us. And it all works together perfectly! Oh well…I guess I’ll just let them be who they wanna pretend to be until it all starts to become mundane. A life living for nothing. Emptiness. Sadness. Depression. Let’s hope we arrive to that point soon! Or else…there might not be enough time!
Well howdy doo there! Wow. It has honestly been forever since the last time I blogged. But hope all is well with everyone! Soo…only 6 more classes and I’m through! Ahh! I’m so freakin excited! For those of you who don’t know me personally I’d like to say that I had a major meltdown a few weeks ago and almost quit everything! I was seriously on the edge of just giving up. When oddly enough my DAD stepped into the picture and encouraged me to keep going! Ding ding! Haha. But for real. It’s nice to have pride in yourself and that feeling of actually getting something that big accomplished on your own! Now>>>this is where school turns into boys! Ha. There was/is the guy last semester that I was really in to! He went to pellissippi and is a HUGE good ole’ Christian boy! LOVE IT. Yada yada yada, long story short I messed things up with him, BUT we are starting to hang as friends again! So who knows where that could lead! :) Then BOYS fade into work. AS ALWAYS! I’m kinda sorta interested in finding out more about this guy that used to go to my school! He seems to be fun, quirky, sweet, and a little sarcastic! Haha which is usually a plus! But I honestly don’t know what I should do! Eeeek! Why so complicated. I figure that the first boyyy needs to come back into my LIFE! Perfect! Plan resolved!
Hmmm…how bout some words to think about….
L::LAUGHING. LOVE. LIFE. LISTEN. LEARN. LIKE. LORD. LIME. LATE. LEGIT. LEGOS. LEAVE.
H::HAPPINESS. HEART. HOPE. HEAL. HEALTH. HUGS. HATS. HEMP. HAY. HOE. HOME.
B::BEST. BUTT. BUCKLE. BAIT. BARN. BOYS. BEAD. BROWN. BAKE. BEE. BUBBLE. BITE.
O::OWLS. ORANGE. OCTOPUS. OVALS. OUT. OSCAR. OPALS. OINK OINK. OATS. OLD. OVER.
P::PAUSE. PLAY. PICKLES. PICTURES. POKE. PIGS. PACK. PARK. PROUD. PHONE. PINK.
E::EVER. EGGS. EAT. ERG. EASY. EWE. ELM. ELF. EYE. ED. ELLE. EMMY. EVE. EX. EGGOS. EFF.
W::WHISTLE. WAVE. WORK. WHITE. WRONG. WOMEN. WALK. WOOF. WIGGLE. WATER.
T::TIME. TALK. TELL. TORN. TOP. TEASE. TICK. TOCK. TAKE. TOSS. TRY. TASTE. TRAIN.
J::JOY. JENKINS. JERK. JUMP. JAZZ. JUGGLE. JESUS. JOCK. JADE. JEEP. JAWS. JET. JUG.
S::SMILE. SNUGGLE. SNAP. SING. STARS. SAIL. SWAGGER. SHH. STILL. SAFE. STRONG.
::PAUSE ON MY LIFE::
I want to STAND OUT!
I want to be different!
I want people to notice me in this world!
Not just for being someone who doesn’t follow the trend.
For being a Christian who is in love with Jesus and everyone can tell!
I want that light to radiate off of me!
I want people to say why is she so happy?
I want people to want what I have!
Not as in material things of this world.
For the LOVE and JOY Jesus brings us because we are living for him!
I want to make a change!
I want to make a difference!
I want to impact people by the way I live!
From this point forward I am going to rethink the way I walk…
I’m not gonna sit around and wait for something to happen.
I’m going to start “walking out” what Jesus has planned for me!
I’m going to change the way I live!
It’s not gonna be easy…and I’m not perfect!
I’m gonna make mistakes. I’m gonna fall.
But God’s gonna pull be back up stronger than I was before!
This is it!
Here we go world!
Please pray for me and tell me if you have any thoughts!